Friday, October 07, 2005 @1:21 AM
Its all started on a hectic schedule, a few dramas and morning silent. I thought I was considerate enough to be at her side, not disturbing her. She was one of the hard-working gals. Set her goals, know her aims and know what she wants.
It was weeks of quizzes, everyone was exhausted. But, in the main time, some of us make time for TV programs. Spending most of my time chatting about actors and actresses with drama addicts than to her. Everything was alright until one day. One day in school, while waiting for lecturer, I realised that we had not been talking. Was I late? Late to realise it? I started to panic, pondering whether I had done something stupid to irritate her, was there a misunderstanding …
Knowing that me, a blunt and teasing person, would sometime irritates one if I went over the limits. That I actually thought that maybe we could have a break till after the exams were good. Rather that I irks her more as I speak.
Days were close to exams. Lacked of sleep, I was not attentive in classes. Conveyed the meaning of lectures to friends wrongly. Now and then such things happened; she was there to clarify it. But it was in discreet. I was hurt and was angry at myself. I must have born with hypertism! I could not absorb lessons well.
It was on 7th September 2005, in the middle of lesson, the 2nd time of my life that I sobbed hardly. Having fits as I sobbed and waking up the next day with swollen eyes.
Situation remains until, surprisingly, the very last paper; she took the initiative to speak to me. I was taken-aback. But, at the same time, happy. Smiling in my heart.
Ohgod,
there I go again.
